I’ve been going through all my papers and books and everything I own, when I came across some stream-of-consciousness essays I wrote about art-making.
Below is my answer to: What inspires you?
So I’ve been paring down my life and preparing for a little bit more of a nomadic lifestyle. And I came across some essays regarding art making that I’d written stream of consciously and thought, why don’t I make some videos about them?
So the first question that I answered was, “what inspires you?” And here’s my response:
I’m trying to express my physical response to nature. Nature is not clean, and neat. It’s dirty and jagged, and sometimes prickly and sharp. Relationships are like that, too. It’s my relationship with nature, people, the country, the city.
I like pushing the edge of things.
I like working hard to get to the meadow on top of the mountain, where I can rest and watch the light and the grasses and the flowers, endorphins kicking in and I’m blissing out.
It’s good, life is good. My work is a celebration of pushing the edges and experiencing life. When I’m painting, I’m having a visceral response to the medium: the way the pigment melts in the oil and into other pigments, the feel of the oil and the brush on the canvas like butter, the way it smells. My body has a response to it. If I find myself dancing, while I’m working, I know something good is happening.
When I paint, I get excited. Trying to describe my brushstroke is almost sexual. Strokes, stroking, dipping, is sensual. It just is. A good painting turns me on.
Cycling inspires me, too. I love how it makes me feel strong. I love the endorphin kick.
When I’m talking about art and thinking about it, it all boils down to sensuality. The sensual experience of this temporal existence, and responses and relationships to it are what really turned me on. I think that diving into the sensual is almost spiritual. It’s not like I’m unconscious, it’s more I’m hyper-conscious.
The subtle is powerful.
The sensual experience of life inspires me that moving through the woods, and taking in all the forest, the grasses and the meadows and seeing it change throughout the year. As I ride the same trails again and again, it’s such a turn on.
It’s also the change that we exact on nature. As a human being I’m working out my feelings about that. All this beauty and we’re willing to cut it down.
How are we a part of nature, and exist in it, without destroying it? Because I exist, something is being destroyed – just so I can eat, wear clothes have a roof over my head.
How do I reconcile my own existence? It’s a cycle.
I make art because I don’t want to skitter along the surface I take from the world because I exist. So I better live deeply and find ways to give back.
Art is a way of showing gratitude for my life and the world I live in.
Yeah, that makes sense.
That makes sense.
- What inspires you?
- How do you respond to the sensual?
- Do you recognize the power of subtlety?
- How do you show gratitude?
Thanks for watching!
My latest art show is up for one more week, until October 30, 2021, at the HeArt Box Gallery. Check it out! Once these paintings come down, they will not be available for sale or to see for several months. I will be on the road and will not have access to the work.
Have a beautiful day!
October 22, 2021