Soul Surrender

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Just as there are times on a winding walk when you can not the see the road ahead, so too will you lose visibility on your soul’s unfolding. . . If you can find solace in your surrendering to that groundlessness, there is a pleasure possible in this depth of not-knowing, where creativity can use you as a vessel and, for a moment, you can know real freedom in your acquiescence to the numinous. – Toko-pa

“Come in from the cold, into your inner oasis; your treasure island. There’s a fountain of youth there. It’s the well that never runs dry; the gift that keeps on giving. There’s no fear, sadness or suffering there, only love, creativity and gratitude! It’s the center of the youniverse, the source of light, your eternal home where you were never born and will never die.”  ~ Geordie Numata, Deer Spirit Reiki

“What goes on in your mind?” – Lou Reed

You must have a room, or a certain hour or so a day, where you don’t know what was in the newspapers that morning, you don’t know who your friends are, you don’t know what you owe anybody, you don’t know what anybody owes to you. This is a place where you can simply experience and bring forth what you are and what you might be. This is the place of creative incubation. At first you may find that nothing happens there. But if you have a sacred place and use it, something eventually will happen. – Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

“Genius is nothing more or less than childhood recaptured at will.” ~ Baudelaire Continue reading “Soul Surrender”

I’m beginning to see the light . . .

How do you perceive the world?

“Well I’m beginning to see the light.” ~ Lou Reed

“There are as many styles of beauty as there are visions of happiness.”  ~ Stendhal

“What if this darkness is not the darkness of the tomb – but the darkness of the womb?”Valarie Kaur

“Turn off your mind, relax and float downstream…. this is not dying.” – John Lennon

“Let me know that into the knot of self comes the thread called time, and that what I am, disgraced or blessed, came from what I was, goes to what I yet may be.” ~ from Ahabs Wife or, The Star Gazer by Sena Jeter Naslund

wet-succulent-2016-holly-troy“We are not in the business of fighting darkness, we are farmers of light.” – Jewel

“[Writing is] like driving a car at night: you never see further than your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.”  ~ E.L. Doctorow

“When I look into the future, it’s so bright it burns my eyes.” — Oprah Winfrey

“Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in a while, or the light won’t come in.”  ~ Isaac Asimov Continue reading “I’m beginning to see the light . . .”

incarnation manifestation – root wisdom

evening at forbidden meadow - holly troy 2016

 

Love yourself. Love your body. Love Mama Earth. Love one another. Love. Remain in your body, meet the world in Love.

What do you want to make real? You have the right to be here – what do you want to do with your physical time on the planet?

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Collected Quotes on Muladhara Chakra to ponder:

“The Thing To Remember ~ we all chose to incarnate to go through the times ahead together.” ~ Anne Ortelee

“You are one of the ones of the One…” ~ Bill Attride

“I feel like a citizen [—] it’s time to go and come back a drifter.” Jean Michel Basquiat – from The Notebooks

“We are this close — this close! — to losing our democracy to the mercenary class. So close it’s as if we’re leaning way over the rim of the Grand Canyon waiting for a swift kick in the pants.” – Bill Moyers

“Young folks today . . .  are placed on a conveyor belt and expected to achieve as quickly as possible, to make big life decisions before they are ready.” – Penny Arcade, New York Times, Penny Arcade is Still a Force in Edinburgh

“In every out thrust headland, in every curving beach, in every grain of sand there is a story of the earth.” ~ Rachel Carson

“You are your own forerunner, and the towers you have builded are but the foundation of your giant-self. And that self too shall be a foundation.” ― Khalil Gibran

“And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair” ― Khalil Gibran

“Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself” Khalil Gibran

Khalil GibranCareful-quote-Malcolm-X“I’ve had a problem feeling real all my life.” – Amanda Palmer, The Art of Asking

“PLEASE BELIEVE ME. I’M REAL. NO REALLY, IT HAPPENED. IT HURT.” – Amanda Palmer, The Art of Asking

“I don’t know what belonging means… I can only use my brain and intellectualize. I really wouldn’t able to tell you from the heart what belonging means… My memories of that place are my link to the place — memories of your experience in a place is your link… All people belong to the world. There is no exclusivity in that… The soil from America can differ from the soil in Malaysia, but its soil, it’s still the same. And the color of people’s skin can differ from place to place but it’s still skin. And, in that regard, there is no difference. People must belong to the earth and a traveller must belong to world somehow and the world must belong to her or him somehow. But, you know, then there’s the social level — that’s just the archetypal level, people usually live in the social level.” —Jeff Buckley

“We do not exist in isolation. Our sense of community and compassionate intelligence must be extended to all life-forms, plants animals, rocks, rivers and human beings. This is the story of our past and it will be the story of our future.” ~Terry Tempest Williams

“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free.”~ Emma Lazarus

“Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it. It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.” – Kurt Vonnegut

“Security represents your sense of worth, your identity, your emotional anchorage, your self-esteem, your basic personal strength or lack of it.”  —Stephen Covey

“If kids grow kale, kids eat kale. If they grow tomatoes, they eat tomatoes. But when none of this is presented to them, if they’re not shown how food affects the mind and the body, they blindly eat whatever you put in front of them.” ~ Ron Finley

“Poetry is my native land.” ~ Marina Tsvetayeva

“We travel like other people, but we return to nowhere/We have a country of words.” ~ Mamoud Darwish

Institutionalized rejection of difference is an absolute necessity in a profit economy which needs outsiders as surplus people. As members of such an economy, we have all been programmed to respond to human difference between us with fear and loathing and to handle that difference in one of three ways: ignore it, and if that is not possible, copy it if we think it is dominant, or destroy it if we think it is subordinate. But we have no patterns for relating across our human differences as equals. As a result, those differences have been misnamed and misused in the service of separation. ~ Audre Lorde Sister Outsider (1984)

“It is in the shelter of each other that the people live.” ~ Irish proverb

“Our cities with their swollen populations and cliff dwelling high-rise buildings are breeding places for loneliness . . . In a world of wheels, old and comfortable groupings of people have disappeared.” ~ Allan Fromme

“The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and deserted by everybody.” ~ Mother Theresa

“’Should’ is a bad place to live, but boy, do we set up a lot of tents there.” ~ Saul Bass

“One has just to be oneself . . . The moment you accept yourself as you are, all burdens, all mountainous burdens simply disappear. Then life is a sheer joy, a festival of lights.” ~ Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

“If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.” ~ Rumi

“The important thing is to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.” ~ Charles Dubois

“You have a right to experiment with your life. You will make mistakes. And they are right too. No, I think there was too rigid a pattern. You came out of an education and are supposed to know your vocation. Your vocation is fixed, and maybe ten years later you find you are not a teacher anymore or you’re not a painter anymore. It may happen. It has happened. I mean Gauguin decided at a certain point he wasn’t a banker anymore; he was a painter. And so he walked away from banking. I think we have a right to change course. But society is the one that keeps demanding that we fit in and not disturb things. They would like you to fit in right away so that things work now.” ~ Anais Nin

“Shame is the lie someone told you about yourself.” ~ Anais Nin

“Our entire biological system, the brain and the Earth itself, work on the same frequencies.” – Nikola Tesla

“Here is your country. Cherish these natural wonders, cherish the natural resources, cherish the history and romance as a sacred heritage, for your children and your children’s children.” ― Theodore Roosevelt

snowshoeing by mt. humphrey's “I prefer winter and fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape-the loneliness of it-the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it-the whole story doesn’t show.” ~ Andrew Wyeth

“If anything is sacred the human body is sacred.” ~ Walt Whitman

 “Your life is a sacred journey. It is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path… exactly where you are meant to be right now… And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing, of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love.” ~ by Caroline Adams

“Yoga does not remove us from the reality or responsibilities of everyday life but rather places our feet firmly and resolutely in the practical ground of experience. We don’t transcend our lives; we return to the life we left behind in the hopes of something better.” ~ Donna Farhi

“Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it. It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.” – Kurt Vonnegut

“I have no money, no resources, no hopes. I am the happiest man alive.” — Henry Miller Tropic of Cancer

“You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with.” — Jim Rohn

bryce canyon (c) Holly Troy“Welcome to the world—I’ve been waiting for you!” — John Bradshaw

“Happy Birthday!”

“I CELEBRATE myself,
And what I assume you shall assume, for every atom belonging to me
as good belongs to you.” — Walt Whitman

“When I was five years old my mother told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.” – John Lennon

“Life is a beautiful magnificent thing, even to a jellyfish.” ~Charles Chaplin

“STAY IN SHAPE! SOMETIMES A MUSICIAN WAITS FOR A GIG, & WHEN IT COMES, HE’S OUT OF SHAPE & CAN’T MAKE IT.” – Thelonious Monk

“You begin saving the world by saving one man at a time; all else is grandiose romanticism or politics.”  ― Charles BukowskiWomen

“Hard times require furious dancing. Each of us is proof.” ~ Alice Walker

Maggie and Jack

Been thinking about Jack Kerouac and Maggie Estep today.

Bad Day at the Beauty Salon

And Maggie’s classic: I’m An Emotional Idiot.

and: I’m Happy

Under the Cold Surface . . .

the heart

The heart is the toughest part of the body.
Tenderness is in the hands.  ~ 
Carolyn Forché

“Be real with love! We have so little time here.” – Randi Vanessa Taylor-Habib

“If you work really hard, and you’re kind, amazing things will happen.” ~ Conan O’Brien

love on  summer day (c) 2014 Holly Troy“I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.” ― Jonathan Safran Foer

“To love at all is to be vulnerable.” – C.S. Lewis

“Certainly the modern poets I cherish most are disturbing spirits; they do not come to coo.” ~ Stanley Kunitz

“Grief changes shape, but it never ends. People have a misconception that you can deal
with it and say, ‘It’s gone, and I’m better.’ They’re wrong.” — Keanu Reeves

“Come on people, now, smile on your brother,
Everybody get together, try to love one another
right now…. ”
—Chet (Chester Williams) Powers, Jr. (1937-1994)
AKA Dino Valenti, Jesse Oris Farrow,
“Let’s Get Together” (1963)

“If we begin to get in touch with whatever we feel with some kind of kindness, our protective shells will melt, and we’ll find that more areas of our lives are workable. AS we learn to have compassion for ourselves, the circle of compassion for others—what and whom we can work with, and how—becomes wider.” – Pema Chodron

“The only reason that we don’t open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don’t feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else’s eyes.” – Pema Chodron

“From the very beginning to the very end, pointing to our own hearts to discover what is true isn’t just a matter of honesty but also of compassion and respect for what we see.” – Pema Chodron

“I grabbed my book and opened it up. I wanted to smell it. Heck, I wanted to kiss it. Yes, kiss it. That’s right, I am a book kisser. Maybe that’s kind of perverted or maybe it’s just romantic and highly intelligent.”  ― Sherman Alexie

“Compassion is the basis of morality.” ~ Arthur Schopenhauer

“Love comforteth like sunshine after rain.” ~ William Shakespeare

A strange passion is moving in my head.
My heart has become a bird
Which searches in the sky.
Every part of me goes in different directions.
Is it really so
That the one I love is everywhere? ~ Rumi

 more heart quotes here . . . 

Happiness Jar – A Repost By Elizabeth Gilbert

I play all kinds of games with myself in order to remain optimistic. When I remember stuff, I usually cycle through the things that have made me sad or angry first, before I see the bright side of the situation (and I usually do see the bright side of even the darkest stuff – eventually . . .)

I came across this post by Elizabeth Gilbert, it’s a great exercise in gratitude and awareness – and I can think of at least half a dozen people who could use this idea – so I am sharing.

HAPPINESS JARS!
Dear Ones –
Here it is the end of the year, and I thought it might be a good time to re-introduce to you all the concept of a Happiness Jar.
Here’s me with mine!

Elizabeth Gilbert with her Happiness Jar.
Elizabeth Gilbert with her Happiness Jar.

What is a Happiness Jar? The simplest thing in the world. You get yourself a jar (or a box, or a vessel of any kind) and every day, at the end of the day, you grab a slip of paper and write down on it the happiest moment of the day.
Even on lousy days, you do this. Because even on lousy days, there is one best moment (or at least, one least-worst moment.)

You stick that little piece of paper in the jar.
Over the years, you have a record of your happiness.
On bad days, I will thrust my fist in that jar and go fishing — pulling up a handful of great moments that I would have utterly forgotten, had I not documented them.
I’ve been doing this practice for years, and I love it.
If my house ever caught on fire, this would be the one material object I would grab before I ran out the door…because what’s inside this jar? THAT’S WHERE IT’S AT — the whole point of this life.
Over the years, my Happiness Jar has taught me much. What continually amazes me is what ends up on the slip of paper every day. Not awesome events, not huge achievements — usually just a small and tiny thing, a moment of awareness…that moment when you step outside and between the house and the car you get hit on the top of the head with a beam of sunlight, and suddenly feel awash with gratitude simply for being alive, and you think, “Yes. This is it.”
It’s usually something that small — and something that grand.
I know that many of you have started this practice, too — and I love seeing the pictures of your jars, and hearing how you have adapted this to your own lives. I love the woman who put one in the middle of her dining room table, and she and her kids each put an entry in there every day — what a cool family practice! And I love the woman who wrote to me last week saying that she had the hardest year of her life, but she kept her Happiness Jar practice going the whole time, and today — on the last day of the year, she’s going to pull out each piece of paper in the jar, to remind her that even now, even in hard times, there was always one good moment a day.
So if anyone wants to begin this practice tomorrow, a New Year is always a great place to start!
Sending love, and, of course, wishing you all an abundance of Happy Moments in 2015!
ONWARD,
LG

A good way to start the New Year!

Om shanti om.

Holly

Passionate Empathy, Feminine Energy, and Isabel Allende

E for Empathy: the feeling that you understand and share another person’s experiences and emotions : the ability to share someone else’s feelings.

Have you ever been moved by a stranger’s suffering or joy? Have you ever been moved by art or literature or a performance? Has that stirring ever moved you to take action?

Photograph: Koen Van Weel/AFP/Getty Images
Photograph of Isabel Allende: Koen Van Weel/AFP/Getty Images

One of the gifts of a storyteller is empathy. Isabel Allende mixes the perfect amount of humor in her storytelling to temper the harshness of life’s reality for so many women around the globe. I laughed and I cried and was also inspired while listening to her TED talk.

At one point, Isabel talks about an argument she had with her daughter – who said “feminism is dead.”

Yes, for privileged women like my daughter and all of us here today, but not for most of our sisters in the rest of the world who are still forced into premature marriage, prostitution, forced labor — they have children that they don’t want or they cannot feed. They have no control over their bodies or their lives. They have no education and no freedom. They are raped, beaten up and sometimes killed with impunity. For most Western young women of today, being called a feminist is an insult.

 

I am a feminist. I don’t understand people who don’t embrace feminism.

In our species, the alpha males define reality, and force the rest of the pack to accept that reality and follow the rules.The rules change all the time, but they always benefit them, and in this case, the trickle-down effect, which does not work in economics, works perfectly. Abuse trickles down from the top of the ladder to the bottom. Women and children, especially the poor, are at the bottom. Even the most destitute of men have someone they can abuse — a woman or a child. I’m fed up with the power that a few exert over the many through gender, income, race, and class.

Abuse hurts everyone. It creates a cycle of distrust, disembodiment, disempowerment, and disconnection. So much to be said on the subject, and Allende brings up many points that are deeper than they may first seem. She tells the stories of a few people who survived (accepted) abuse, and/or took action against it. Maybe we can be inspired to take action in our own small ways to make a difference in our lives, communities, and perhaps even the world.

I think that the time is ripe to make fundamental changes in our civilization. But for real change, we need feminine energy in the management of the world. We need a critical number of women in positions of power, and we need to nurture the feminine energy in men. I’m talking about men with young minds, of course. Old guys are hopeless; we have to wait for them to die off. (Laughter) Yes, I would love to have Sophia Loren’s long legs and legendary breasts. But given a choice, I would rather have the warrior hearts of Wangari Maathai, Somaly Mam, Jenny and Rose Mapendo. I want to make this world good. Not better, but to make it good. Why not? It is possible. Look around in this room — all this knowledge, energy, talent and technology. Let’s get off our fannies, roll up our sleeves and get to work, passionately, in creating an almost perfect world. Thank you.

Isabel Allende is a Chilean author who has written the following books:
The House of the Spirits, La Gorda de Porcelana, Of Love and Shadows, Eva Luna, The Stories of Eva Luna, The Infinite Plan, Paula, Aphrodite, Daughter of Fortune, Portrait in Sepia, City of the Beasts, My Invented Country, Kingdom of the Golden Dragon, Inés of My Soul, The Sum of Our Days, Island Beneath the Sea, Maya’s Notebook, Ripper, and Zorro. To learn more about her life and her work, click Isabel Allende.

Writing the Energetic Body Testimonial

For my online workshop, I asked participants of Writing the Energetic Body to introduce themselves on the class blog, and one of the participants who has taken the class before wrote this beautiful testimonial! (shared by permission)

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Hello, everyone.  My name is Robert Alvarez, and I live in Union City, New Jersey.  I AM an Intuitive Card Reader, a Metaphysical Teacher, an Energy Healing Practitioner (Reiki, as well as other Energy Healing Modalities) and a WordPress Blogger.

I have known Holly Troy for several years, and have always loved her Energy.  She suggested I write a post to officially introduce myself to the group, and here it is.

I have participated in “Writing the Energetic Body” only once before, and I AM beyond happy, excited and thankful that the opportunity has been presented to me, yet again.

My first experience with “W. E. B.” was incredibly powerful.  I learned more about myself, and experienced Healing Shifts in many areas, including but not limited to: physical, emotional, sexual, Spiritual, Psychic, financial, and romantic.

timberline sunset (c) Holly Troy 2013

It certainly super-charged my writing, and my personal Self-Expression.

In spite of the new financial and professional doors that have opened up for me recently, I look forward to making the most of the investment in my Peace, Health and Plenty known as “Writing the Energetic Body: Pisces 2014.”

Also, feel free to learn more about me by visiting my blogs.  They are:

http://thetarotman.wordpress.com (This Is Who I AM), and

http://thisgaymanslife.wordpress.com (This Gay Man’s Life…).

Thank you, one and all, and may the Divine Great Mystery Bountifully Bless all of you with:

Love and Light and Life; Prosperity, Protection and Peace; Honor, Wholeness and Healing.

Wishing you Powerful, Transformative Change, Robert Alvarez, the Psychic Witch.

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This made my day! I’ve been busy creating videos for the course, and am feeling pretty groovy about the class.

To see a class description and to register, visit here

Born on a Thursday #47 – awake, alive

It feels like we are at dawn in the earth’s cycle around the sun. Light is breaking through on the edges of the horizon and creatures are stirring.

view from where i write (c) holly troy 2014The other evening, I was done with work, but not ready to go home (I’ve been this way for a couple of weeks now). Sydney suggested a hike. While hiking, we both felt the feeling of the earth quickening. By the time we were leaving the woods, the sky was a dark chalky blue and the moon was pale yellow. We talked about the moon and sky, love and relationships, sex and sexuality, creativity and creative process, survival, money, how we are valued and how we value ourselves (the usual for us).

This week I’ve been working too much on things that don’t matter to me. After Tuesday night’s hike, Wednesday felt flat – too much sitting and protocol, too much work for the amount of hours I am allotted and valued for. And then I saw that Maggie Estep died. Maggie was a poet, novelist, and spoken word artist. She was someone who was a part of my world when I lived in the East Village – on the periphery, yes – but still part of it. While she was able to express her rage, I was navigating my anger and sexuality quietly (and I still scared the shit out of men). I am grateful for her, for her ability to say things I tended to keep more private.

As I was cycling home, I realized that there are a lot of people who were pivotal in (saving) my life during that time (the 90s) in New York – and so many of those people who were important to my development as a writer and artist and loving human being – I will never see them again. There I was, pedaling slowly up the mesa, into the sunset, with cars flying past me and tears streaming down my face.

I felt awake, and more alive than I have felt in a long while.


Maggie doing her thing:

I still feel like an emotional idiot!

And I still hate being harassed (though it’s not as frequent as it was in NYC).