how i’m feeling today

Mad Girl’s Love Song by Sylvia Plath “I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my lids and all is born again. (I think I made you up inside my head.) The stars go waltzing out in blue and red, And arbitrary blackness gallops in: I shut my eyes and all […]

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things I didn’t know I loved

I didn’t know I loved the way Grandpa was so proud of his organic tomatoes, how he’d make a fuss about them being home grown—better than store bought.

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Letter to Sherman Alexie

Diabetes is just like a lover, hurting you from the inside. Sherman Alexie, I think you’re going to have another book for me to read soon. It’s been twice, three times since I’ve thought about you in less than a week. You’re picture is on my wall. I wrote about you and now I’ve randomly picked a quote from you. If I were to write a love letter to a living stranger I think it would be you.

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“Nighty night, little bunny rabbit.” -more looking back

“Nighty night, little bunny rabbit.” And we all go to sleep, dream, drip. My heart is racing. I am going to forget about men altogether right now and just create create create. I am miserable and a fiend, a total hyperactive freak. And the Goddess is not coming out. The Goddess is shrinking under me. […]

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What is sacred?

“To be hopeful in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness. What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places (and there are so many) where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction. And if we do act, in however small a way, we don’t have to wait for some grand utopian future. The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.”

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I love 11.02.09

Back to loving. I love my friends, yes I do! I love riding my bicycle. I love being able to wear jeans. I love the sun coming through my window. I love this bright, sunshiny day. I love that I will get to see Randy on Saturday! I love that I have made a decision […]

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One thing to do if feeling blue

Been feeling blue: part of it is astrological I think, part of it is me missing my boyfriend, definitely dreading the winter (somehow I always think I am going to enjoy it like girls in brightly-colored knits in sports catalogues – having the right gear can certainly help, but somehow that Vail Ski Bunny theme/experience […]

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The Good Life

When I first left my previous life, I spent a lot of time walking in the woods and noticing the world around me. I didn’t want to fall into the same behaviors that would lead me to the same problems, I knew I had to put my values into action. I developed ideas about how I’d like to live that reflect my values (ecologically, economically, creatively, intellectually, spiritually, sexually, nutritionally, sustainably, etc) – and some of the ideas are manifesting. The experience of my life, my friendships, my work have shifted. More and more I ask myself, “Does this work for me? Will it work for the next generation? What am I feeling right now? Am I happy?”

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