musings of a psychedelic punk rock yogini and late-blooming athlete
Let down my guard – split, shed my skin – Phoenix rise in my mind, no one sees.
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Spring fever brain boil – thoughts drip moist (like) sweat from Tarzan’s breast – salt on skin.
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“Nasty Man” (©️Gabriel Earl Music, 2017) (words and music by Joan Baez)
Ghost hover in corner / squeeze him out of bed / stare at my man all night!
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I received this message in my inbox from Heather Bleasdell, Citizen Witch.
Never give up. Always Surrender. ~ Heather Bleasdell
Her wise words makes so much sense to me right now. Caring for my partner while he is recovering from open heart surgery has been a constant surrendering to the situation at hand and taking every action possible to help his recovery. At the same time, while focusing on him, I have had to remember myself and make sure I also take actions toward self-care. It’s been tricky – and I slipped up a little bit. I hope I am back on track.
Heather offered a great ritual for the Aries New Moon and checking in with self needs:
Rather than look outside for answers – approval – affirmation
Feel InsideWhat is being initiated within you… regardless of ego’s preference?
Where can you give yourself more space to unfold?Without pushing or holding back, breathe there.
Spaciousness is the doorway for massive magic.
To see more of Heather’s ritual, her art, her humor, and all kinds of positive messages, check out The Work of Heather Bleasdell.
Thanks for reading!
Your friend,
Holly
Bird-heart rib cage / frantic flutter wing-span / off-beat dream shake / new song sung
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Cold wet weight crushing old limbs already heavy with sap, springtime snow.
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How do people believe in a Loving God, yet live so full of fear?
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Church lady sucker punch, didn’t see it coming and I’m still spinning.
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Hey folks ~
The original plan was to write a sentence everyday for 108 days. Plans got derailed – since I began 108 Days of American Sentence, my sweet man had emergency open heart surgery. I’ve been with him along the entire journey – from being in the room when he was diagnosed with an aneurysm in his heart along with the prognosis, to the surgery and the excruciating days directly afterward, and now along the slow forward and back and zigzag course of healing. This experience has been intense and terrifying and deeply human – and despite how scary – there is the gift of deep love, trust, warmth, benevolence, and comfort along the path .
These sentences were to be a meditation of sorts, I’m glad to be getting back to them.
I’m sure I will write more about this open heart passage – I’m mostly exhausted right now. I do know this – if you love someone: tell them, show them, be kind everyday.
Your friend,
Holly
The right to be alive. First Chakra. Our connection to Earth and to the Cosmos. Our right to be free.
How are you supported in your right to be? Can you look in the mirror and say, “I am enough?” How does it feel to know that your being alive is enough? I am proposing that for the next 30 days, every time you pass a mirror, look into your own eyes and say , “I am enough.”
“Everyone should have themselves regularly overwhelmed by Nature.” ~ George Harrison
“Look at the sky: that is for you. Look at each person’s face as you pass them on the street: those faces are for you. And the street itself, and the ground under the street, and the ball of fire underneath the ground: all these things are for you.” ~ Miranda July
“This is the world as it is. This is where you start.” ~ Saul D. Alinsky
“National humiliation is long in gestation and violent in resolution.” – Roger Cohen
“The purpose of life is to be alive.” – Charlotte Kasl, If the Buddha Got Stuck
This is the fight our generation was made for. You know enough. And you can learn. If this happened in the future, there may not have been people around who lived the fight. Holocaust survivors, Vietnam and Iraq war veterans. AIDS activists. People who have seen what happens when ghouls come in and try to destroy government. We will turn their ridiculous plans into puddles as the sun comes out. ~ Matthew Kohn
“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” — Mae West
“Take care of your body. It’s the only place you have to live.” — Jim Rohn
“The whole point of Jesus’s life was not that we should become exactly like him, but that we should become ourselves in the same way he became himself. Jesus was not the great exception but the great example.“ – Carl Jung
“The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. The opposite of addiction is connection.” – Johann Harri
Hurt – his first word – I’m sorry – as if there was anything I could do.
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