Becoming

I wanted to tell mom that
we’re going to be OK she can
go.
She doesn’t need to be
here to take care of us
anymore.
Wanted to tell her
she needs to go ahead
and be free
and always
visit us anytime.
We will see her
soon, but I don’t know how
to say that to her without falling
apart,
I don’t wanna fall apart
in front of her
because that is
what is making her
hang on.
She doesn’t want to see any
of us fall apart.
You know how she is.
She has to take
care of everything.
Keep the peace
you know. I just know
it’s time
for her to be free to fly
to become the light that she
sees.
It’s time for her to be
one of those orbs
she sees
floating around.
I told her to come
and turn the lights on and
off at my house —
scare the shit out of me!
It’s time for her to
become
part of the universe
become
part of the positive
energy
that this world needs
so bad right now.

— Text from Sissy

September 25th, 2024
Hudson Valley, New York

image: green man © Holly Troy 9.2024