Every year, Kayleigh Jean from Falcons and Pentacles offers April Fool’s Journey – prompts for exploring the Major Arcana (the Hero’s Journey) through divination though tarot cards and a writing prompt. These are the cards I pulled for my own exploration – try pulling cards for yourself – or – get a reading from me.

Prompt for the High Priestess: What does my Inner World want me to know?

Four of Pentacles and King of Cups rx

Letting go of fear and the need to control brings new levels of life experience.

Four of Pentacles is holding on too tightly to what I have, to what I have done, to what I have created. Fear of loss stifles self-worth and creative financial flow. King of Cups calls for a surrendering of control, to release an emotional or psychic pattern of distrust, to acknowledge some emotional wounding and feel the grief and psychic trauma fully in order to pave the way for a new level of feeling, self-worth, creative expression, and flow of finances.

This makes sense as I have lost nearly all sources of income since the shutdown. I can’t hold on to any of it — and without processing my feelings about that, it is difficult to move forward or to see new opportunities. I am just beginning to acknowledge some of my feelings. This morning I said to Paul, “I am bummed out that I worked so hard on that series of paintings for three months, and now no one can go and look at them. How can I sell art that people can’t see?”

The other thing that is going on is I am hovering at my Chiron return in the fourth house of home and family. King of Swords can also represent Chiron, the wounded healer . I am at a point where I am seeing new depths of the abuse I endured as a child. The harm to my self-worth made it so I missed out on having close and healthy relationships most of my life. It also stunted my ability to make a good living because I didn’t expect to be valued. Currently, I feel like a child starting over again – but this time with wisdom and knowledge that not everything is/was my fault, and that I do deserve to be here, and in fact, I have some gifts to share.

My friend and teacher Geordie says, “Your Chiron return is your opportunity to turn shit into gold! This is a time to celebrate!”

The Good News!

The positive side of this reading is that the Four of Pentacles indicates that the work and projects I had created actually do have worth, and if I see the work as a foundation rather than four walls — there is a likelihood of higher levels of achievement. The King of Cups is a reminder that I have the emotional and psychic wisdom to see and navigate change — and I have the ability to help others as well.

It is time for emotional and creative expansion, and it is time to trust my intuitive and emotional wisdom in order to open the door for the next level of material achievement and life experience.

The High Priestess tarot card from the Morgan Greer deck and Four of Pentacles  and KIng of Cups tarot cards from the Rider Waite deck.