Here! And getting there . . .

Here! And getting there . . .

 
My life changed dramatically late summer last year, 2021. And it continues to evolve and change – sometimes I feel like I have settled down, but really, things are just beginning. 
 
I moved to New York last fall, partly to start over and partly to help give care for my mom.
 
Before that, I decided in 2019 to be a full-time artist/musician/teacher. Since September 2019 I have not worked for anyone but myself.
 
decisions @ holly troy 5.2022Six months after moving to New York – reestablishing relationships and starting new ones, navigating my family, starting new music projects – I finally set up a space to paint. I’m not exactly sure how I have managed to pay my bills, etc., without regular work – but I have done it. I barely worked, I barely painted, and so far, music is costing me money . . . I am somehow moving forward. Perhaps imperfectly, but I am doing it as best I can.

I am mostly figuring out how to live all over again. And helping my mom takes a lot of time and energy. Some days are easy, some days I feel crushed – overall – I’m doing my best.

Money! I have lot of trust in my relationship with money! It’s an interesting dance right now.
 
Anyway! I promised myself I would show my painting process (I love to share this stuff – I love process) – after I finish my paintings. When I show my work as I am doing it, people start suggesting to me how I should finish my paintings – and I really don’t like that. There is a time with every piece where I feel incredibly vulnerable – and I don’t need to second-guess myself.
 
This time – I was so excited to be painting – I forgot my promise. I was showing the work as it happened. And lo and behold! People started telling me – “I think it’s done!” and “Maybe you should use this color . . .” and “make sure you yadda yadda yadda . . . ” (Really I wanna say – “You think it’s done? Great! Two grand and it’s yours . . . “)
 
Art-making is the one thing in my entire life where I have felt like I had the authority to do my thing without anyone’s opinion. I don’t want to open the door for second-guessing myself. Or to get annoyed.
 
I just wanna open to something bigger than myself and let it come through. I’ve been doing that ever since I could hold a pencil.
 

Remains of the Southwest

 
At the beginning of May I sold two paintings! I had just come off a retreat and was in Arizona for a couple of days, and most of my work is still out there. I assessed my work, made a video about it, and boom! Two sold. I have three pieces left out there, and two in the works. 
 
 
My initial plan was to pick up the rest of my work and all my property after the retreat, get a rental van and drive it all back east. And, plans changed. Travel and shipping has become very costly, so I’m trusting an answer will come to me when the time is right.
 

Of course, selling the work is even better! (The pieces that sold were Coney Island, which wasn’t in the video, and Where the Light Gets In). 
 

Shifting Tides on the East Coast

 
Besides painting, these are the main things that I have going on:

  • I am working on a workshop that uses embodiment practices to ground in creativity. More on that as it happens. My goal is to have it released (it’s an online course) by/in August.

  • I’m recording an album with my band Werewolves of Brooklyn – loose idea – this fall. That project is a little on the backburner for me as I work on my art and workshop.

  • I have a large painting project of very small pieces that I am planning on picking up in the fall as well. And it ties into the workshop.

  • Mom

This is the last of the process until I am done with the painting:
 
 

I love hearing about creative process, projects in the works, navigating life and work. What are you up to? 

May 21, 2022
ELizaville, NY

PS: Mom and me at the rally last weekend . . . 

Abortion is healthcare © Holly Troy 5.2022

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Holly hails from an illustrious lineage of fortune tellers, yogis, folk healers, troubadours and poets of the fine and mystical arts. Shape-shifting Tantric Siren of the Lunar Mysteries, she surfs the ebbs and flows of the multiverse on the Pure Sound of Creation. Her alchemy is Sacred Folly — revolutionary transformation through Love, deep play, Beauty, and music.

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