Sometimes there’s dark in the light

The world says “Breathe”

Everyday these past few days has been an intense push musically. I’m feeling out to sea, though the music sounded good today.

I was ambitious this morning and listed three things I will let go of, three things I am grateful for, and three things I will focus on.

Today I will let go of:

  • expecting the dress I ordered to arrive by Thursday in time for the show
  • self-hatred
  • worrying about money

Today I am grateful:

  • for Graham’s kindness, humor, and honesty
  • to listen to music that is original, spacious, and vulnerable
  • I have a beautiful voice

Today I will focus on:

  • making music
  • making art
  • being a happy and healthy person

I was peaceful driving in silence while looking for a parking space. It took about 45 minutes to find a spot this morning. I planned on only being in the city to rehearse for a couple of hours, then somehow I managed to spend $50 and five hours in Manhattan. I jumped on the wrong train back to Brooklyn in my haste to get home. 

shadow waiting © Holly troy 12.2022I want to paint. I have 108 pieces of wood gessoed, stacked, and waiting for me to paint. They are a sub-series of a very large project that’s been years in the making (in my mind).

Tomorrow I will paint and practice music at home. 

My time got pulled today – I got pulled. I can see where my boundaries slipped.

I can slow down. I can miss my friends who aren’t here. I can notice how slippery it feels to let go of control of handling my mother’s care. I can accept that things are changing swiftly enough. I can breathe.

December 13, 2022
Brooklyn, NY

 

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Holly hails from an illustrious lineage of fortune tellers, yogis, folk healers, troubadours and poets of the fine and mystical arts. Shape-shifting Tantric Siren of the Lunar Mysteries, she surfs the ebbs and flows of the multiverse on the Pure Sound of Creation. Her alchemy is Sacred Folly — revolutionary transformation through Love, deep play, Beauty, and music.

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