Thanksgiving after Thanksgiving

Went for a walk in the Thorn Preserve. I discovered Earth Yonis everywhere. I made up my mind that all the hairy seed pods were evidence that nothing ever really dies.

I didn’t listen to any podcasts. I listened to the river, the birds, the wind. I fed the animals in the yard, fed the cat, and meditated. I gave love to (the energy of) money. (That feels good) I returned from my walk. I decided to meditate outside. Before the rain came.

And I thought:

What is the best thing I can do right now? Nothing. Do nothing. Recalibrate.

I have a list “to-do” that I haven’t done in days. Clearly I’m resisting. Give in to the resistance.

 Fucking rest for a minute.

Oh, right. Rest. Relax. Relaxation is the most important part of yoga. The resting, the integrating, the relaxing the nervous system. Relaxing. Relax. Relax. Loosen up, leave a little space for blessings.

Last night I was tired. But I did the aham prema mantra anyway. I’ve been feeling it all day today. Aham Prema, I am (you are) Divine Love. I am (you are) infused with and exude divine love. I am (you are) lit with the Golden pink light of Divine Love.

Lying in the hammock – swinging swaying gently weightless. Open air. Birds singing, river streaming, chimes, still point. A place to feel all that Divine Love.

My cells feel lit up today.

Sending divine love to:
the birds, the trees, the earth
All the earth Yonis are around me.
My friends all around me.
My friends Cory and Yeon-Su on their sea kayaks in Mexico.
My Mama, this house, my to-do list,
my body, the air,
the air shimmering with Divine Love —
to Beaver Chief, who taught me to send my love and blessings out and to receive my love and blessings in,
to all the people shopping,
to all the people not shopping,
to all the people who make shopping possible.
Oh god, oh god, I’m grateful —
I’m not shopping!
To money, to the energy of money, to my aura,
to the aura of the planet,
to all beings, all beings, all beings.
All beingness.

My shoulders feel weightless; a weight has been lifted.

I let it go, I let myself be. My heart feels expanded.

Fresh air, fresh air, fresh air.

I stayed on the hammock until the rain began. I still fell it – it feels really good to feel golden light flowing through me. And money flowing through me – the swirl the jump, the love of money flowing in every cell of my body, dancing in my aura. I am going to keep letting that feeling flow in me.

My feelings are expanding, expanding beyond anger, fear, and guilt. That’s the best thing.

That’s so good.

Love, hope, peace, peace –

November 29, 2022
Woodstock, NY