End table morning

I wake, late!
oh! I need to help!
And then
I remember . . .

And it’s not that there aren’t so many things to do – it’s that the nature of the things are
not quick-quick-life-and-death, the nature of things are
now-it’s-happened-post-death-slow-dance.

Make-the-move-and-wait action.
Fill-out-the-paperwork action.
Do-the-taxes action.
Be-on-hold-with-the-bank action.
Insulate-the-house action.
Ensure-the-chimney-sweep-is-coming action.
Call-the-electrician action.

Figure-out-making-a-living action.

My heart
beat erratic
the last few weeks of her life.
64 beats per minute, 108 beats per minute, 85 beats per minute

Change.
All-encompassing:
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, environmentally.

This morning:
wake up,
assess what needs to be done,
stretch,

inch toward tasks.

~ ~ ~ 

October 29, 2024
Hudson Valley, New York

image: end table morning © Holly Troy 10.29.2024