Dweller between the Waters

Oil on primed cardboard
UV Varnish
approx 12″ x 19.5″

SOLD

April 28th, 2025

I just shipped Dweller between the Waters. It’s going to live in Oregon. I’m happy – this painting is going to the perfect person in the perfect place.

I’m grateful to be painting again.

I dropped the painting with the shipper. I walked in town, smelled tulips, laughed, talked on and on about Sinners. (I have been fortified by that movie – creatively, emotionally, visually. Everything about it was stunning – the storytelling, the acting, the visual landscape. I had no idea how badly I needed to go to the movies. I really needed to see / hear / experience something breathtaking).

Springtime sun was deep gold, warm, casting long shadows. I am in love with Taurus season.

It’s now 8:30 at night and dark. Windows open. I hear tree frogs and geese. I’m tired. I might let myself go to sleep soon.

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From March 27th, 2025

Another painting done! Yes!

I’m feeling my energy come back stronger and stronger with each passing day. For a long while I felt like I was in various states of floating – leading up to my mother’s death, and now, living with the orientation that she has passed. A friend texted me today, “I met a [person] whose father just died . . . [their] aura was very receptive but in a kind of shock – a numb shock after years of dealing with something.” And that’s it! That’s the way I (still) feel. Even after months.

I wrote in my journal this morning:
I’m still blinking at the light. Mama died five months ago — and I gave her all I could as she moved toward death for — almost three years. All of my 50s. I was 50 when I arrived. Now I’m 54.
The light has turned green. It’s time to move forward.
So glad to be moving forward. Everything is changing. Outside of myself.

I’m feeling a flood of movement now. So many paintings and ideas piling up I don’t have enough time in the day to create everything. That means I am choosing. I am choosing to paint, I am choosing to write, I am choosing forbidden words project, I am choosing to work out, I am choosing tarot, astrology, chanting. I’m choosing to flow with it.