Did I need to feel the weight of being on this planet for half a century to finally say what I need (want) to say and do what I need (want) to do?

When I was younger, sometimes it felt like I was about to be hurled off the earth—for the ideas and obsessions that flew through my mind.

Now I’m solid.

Now I know so many people who have died.

Now I’ve lived several lifetimes in this body.

Neither heaviness nor lightness nor permission matters.

— January 3rd, 2023
    Woodstock, New York