What’s going on?
Big love everybody!
It’s mid-August. Finally, the “Happenings” are here! First, a little update.
It’s been a rough few months. Last month I wrote about having a hard time getting out of bed. The difficult time turned into a serious depression – a darkness I haven’t felt in a long long time. This one scared me. It was difficult to create. No music last month!
There was so much going on – the big thing being isolated and our (Paul’s) fourteen year old black lab Duke declining. For the last few weeks of his life, Duke lost the ability to walk, and Paul and I were cleaning him and changing his bedding every 15 minutes or so. That meant not much sleep. Paul also withdrew, and often I would find him in the morning sleeping on the floor next to Duke. The house smelled (still smells – but not as bad) awful (like pee) and poor Duke cried a lot.
We did what we could to keep our good buddy happy and comfortable as possible. He loved eating, so he had steak at every meal! And lots of petting, and whispers, and singing.
This year I felt the energy of my late sister, whose birthday was in early August. And of my brother, who passed away last November. And my friend’s mom who just passed of Covid. So much change! And we are going through so transformation personally and as a collective that I believe is needed. There is a lot of healing that is needed. It is not always easy.
My posting has been a little more sporadic than I would like, just know i have been doing my best!
I’m doing these things to help with my depression:
Riding my bike again – I forced myself to ride – knowing it would help me to feel better emotionally and physically. At the beginning of the pandemic, there was a study going around saying that biking spread the virus faster and farther through the air, so I stopped cycling. I took to walking a lot, which I still do, but walking is nothing like mountain biking. It turned out the study was flawed and being outside (obviously) is pretty darn good for you. Also, I live in an area with a low population – when I mountain bike, chances are slim that I will even see another person.
Going to and sometimes teaching a socially distanced yoga class once a week with my bandmate and friend, Jessica. The participants who are teachers take turns teaching.
Socially distanced band rehearsals. Getting together with the Lofi Sofias has been a highlight of my life – even when I barely have the energy to get to rehearsal. Just knowing I have a plan helps me feel better. In the last month or so, it has taking all I have emotionally to practice my guitar, so there has been a decline in my skill. That’s a bummer in itself! So now I am “just doing it” – and trying not to be judgmental about it.
Having goals. Every morning I review my life from my future self – it really helps. When I am feeling great, it’s the best. When I am not doing so great, it’s another thing to do – but I still do it. It’s something to hang onto.
I’m writing a memoir. One and a half pages a day is the goal. I took my own advice from last month’s Co-Creating the Cosmos seminar – in 9 month’s time I will have a first draft of a book! Writing a memoir could be depressing in itself, but I find that it is giving me more reasons for gratitude.
Being in nature. Again, low energy, but going for a walk or ride in the woods helps my attitude.
Quitting Twitter. Wow. Huge relief. People are super sarky and mean when they only have 140 characters to say something. Disinformation? Sheesh. Also, trolls. Whoa. I will miss Sarah Cooper though.
Studying and teaching astrology. I immerse myself in the astrology lessons and creating the seminar when I prepare Co-Creating the Cosmos. Teaching makes me feel so alive! And one idea begets another idea. And connecting on something I find interesting and empowering, even over Zoom, just feels good.
Making an appointment with my naturopath. I look forward to getting to the bottom of my lack of energy – and possible physical reasons for my depression.
I’m coming out of it
I went on a socially distanced camping trip to Telluride with my friend Heather. I was on the fence about going up until the day before I went. I was leaving Paul behind (he was invited, too, but had to take care of Duke), and I was nervous about the lack of control over my environment. Also, I didn’t want to spend money on camping gear. I was lent a tent, a chair, a camp stove, sleeping pads – everything I needed. So I went.
Telluride is the golden land of plenty. It is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been to in my entire life. No exaggerating! Every time I go there I am astounded. Nature, mountains, fresh air, just stopping and taking it all in is the best!
I wouldn’t know I felt rejuvenated by my trip until I got home, slept, and woke up with Telluride in my aura. I think I have turned a corner.
While I was gone, Duke passed. Paul and I shared a beautiful conversation about him. Paul is a bit fragile right now, very jumpy, traumatized. But he is getting better. He is getting sleep. I am getting sleep. We have plans for making more music, more art, and having more time in nature.
Be good to yourself. Find what gives you joy and do it. If you need to just stop and do nothing – that’s ok. Stop and do nothing. Your being here is a big deal!
Thanks for reading!
Now for the Happenings!
Co-Creating with the Cosmos: Leo Lunar Lesson
In Co-Creating the Cosmos Lunar Lesson in Leo we will explore embodying the power of:
- vitality and creativity;
- the heart;
- the Sun;
- play and fun;
- ceremony, drama, and ritual;
- romance and love
We will review how to dance with time and work and set intentions with the monthly lunar cycles as well as the longer arching lunar gestation cycles.
Receive a lesson in practical electional astrology focusing on the moon. Embody the energy of the cycle for full integration beyond the intellect. We are going to move our bodies, do creative visualization meditation, breathe, and play. Receive instruction for potent ritual and intention setting
Sunday, August 16th, 9 am to 11 am Pacific, or
Monday, August 17th, 5 pm to 7 pm Pacific
Feel free to contact me if you have any questions.
Songs from the Hearth
Fingers crossed, we keep making music.
Readings – Check out my calendar for availability!
Currently, my readings are half price, until we get through these strange times!
April Fool’s Journey – the trip through the major arcana continues!
Sky Pixels and Paper Vessels
March 1st to September 1st, 2020
Sky Pixels and Paper Vessels is a collection of artwork by Holly Troy and Beth LaCour of Flagstaff, AZ. This collection brings color, patterns and constructed forms that play off the natural world and light.
The gallery program, a collaboration between Northern Arizona University and the High Country Conference Center, developed from NAU’s vision to showcase Northern Arizona’s vibrant artistic community.
Currently, due to COVID-19, the center is closed. I may be moving my artwork to a digital format. Stay tuned.
High Country Conference Center
201 W Butler Ave
Flagstaff, AZ 86001
August Dates Listed
Sunday, August 16th, 9 am to 11 am Pacific – Co-Creating with the Cosmos: Leo Lunar Lesson
Monday, August 17th, 5 pm to 7 pm Pacific – Co-Creating with the Cosmos: Leo Lunar Lesson
All Month – Tarot readings $35.00!
Throughout the Month – Music
March 1st to September 1st, 2020 – Sky Pixels and Paper Vessels
7 thoughts on “August 2020 Happenings”
Dear Holly and Paul,
My deepest condolences to you for Duke. I fully support the way Paul & Duke “watched over each other,” and I nod in reverence to Paul for sleeping on the floor near Duke. I did that with Merc(urius) my cat of 21 years back in 2014, and am honored to know Paul felt that close and deeply about Duke.
I’ve wondered what was happening, felt distress, though it felt as well a time for a lot of life to happen and not interfere. Best to your memories of Duke being sacred blessings of the wonderful life and steaks and times he had and you guys had with him together.
Much love from Myself, (Merc), and Lyra (who’s 12 and as a German Shepherd Wolf at 130 lbs is aging and free of charge providing the urinary aromatherapy for the house. It’s a different time),
Much love, May Your Memories Be Blessings,
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You were an amazing human to sweet Mercurius. And oh my goodness! Lyra the 12 year-old 130 pound German Shepherd Wolf. I bet she is the best!
Paul also says – wow! Thank you.
Big love, Holly
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MY best to you two. I’ve had some serious 4-wheel drive life rumbles over the last month, so I’m out here with you guys on the journey… and adapting and keeping the keel somewhat even though it may not be trimmed up with full sails so to speak — low energy and depression-related as well.
Wow also back to you two for the courage to be open and share the last several months’e experience. You gave me a burst of YES to (insert nouns verbs and lots of wondrous adjectives). 🙂 Thanks to you both.
We are The Tardigrade, huh? Quarter-million psi weighing us down rather than depression? Or both? I’ve personally started to rumble through the worst with the best also going on. It feels like a very Both-And time where it simply feels more important than ever to risk into fullness without yanking the carpet.
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I’m sorry you are going through a rough time, too – and at the same time, yes “it simply feels more important than ever to risk into fullness without yanking the carpet.”
I was listening to a talk yesterday, where the speaker said Capricorn is the container that allows for personal sovereignty. That resonates for me. What kind of intense container has Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto built? What are we learning? And little Mars is gonna keep on challenging the integrity of the container for the next 5 months. I feel like he’s saying – Oh yeah, what about this? and this? and this?
I felt like I needed to share a little about what has been happening because I wasn’t totally aware of my own state until recently. I finally realized banging my head against the wall was giving me a headache!
So now what? Now where? While rolling over some old stuff, at the same time, I think we might be entering new territory.
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Yup, the velociraptor Mars testing Jurassic Park fences for weaknesses…
And yes, rolling into new territory… with brand new things coupled with mining the treasures of work from 18-23 years ago. Resurrections to enhance births. Hmmm, that sounds like our previous disincarnations of our work in this life re-incarnating INTO our current work to breath more depthful life into it? Feel so from my perspective.
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definitely there, especially in terms of music, psychological experimentation and astrology, art, writing – so much mining for sure – from a new perspective, angle, overview, incarnation.
Nodding. Things are just so much clearer now, even when as clear as mud or I have NO idea how I’ll move this or that to shake out. I have a deeper comfortability with the not-knowing now, and and even deeper resonance with my creative explorations. LOL I just finished my Chiron Return as I finished the 3+ years of Brainspotting 18 months-2 years back… and on to the next 7 year 1/4 of Saturn period to the Saturn Return — What I was doing up to and through my Chiron Return setting the stage to prepare me well towards the Saturn Return. Well is good, just gotta keep rhythmically and audibly and in Empathic Silence keep figuring not what the hell is going on (ridiculous foray – 🙂 that they both expressed as much on the video), though more so what I’m going to do/not do about it.
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