Beautiful World! Hello! Happy Solstice. 

I went to a solstice ritual where I was part of an eclectic group of women. It was beautiful to see us all beginning the evening shy and wary and by the end of the night open and laughing and crying – without booze or drugs. We threw what we wanted to let go of into the fire – our grief and despair, dreams that weren’t going to come true, unhappy childhoods, loneliness, and our hopes and wishes for our loved ones. We let go of control. We threw in wreaths of herbs and plants, sage and lavender bundles, cedar and pine. 

We didn’t know that we knew what to do. 

A woman played a pyramid shaped crystal gong and called in our power. We reached into our hearts and planted seeds of worth and deserving, prosperity, laughter, joy and curiosity and love.

We witnessed our broken hearts.

If felt good, peaceful, joyful on my two mile walk home. As I got closer to the edge of the forest, and further away from houses, the moon lit the way. i could see across meadows and between trees. The air was cool and fresh.

The next day was rainy and chilly. I was grateful for the ritual and also homesick for New York and my friends there. I was sad to feel some connections fading as well. I let myself feel it, and cry. I tried not to look at social media – but I peeked and saw a message from Louise Hay. It was this: 

All is well.
Only good will come of this situation.
I am safe.

Quickly, I closed my phone. That was all I needed. I thought, am  feeling my feelings? Yes. Yes you are. Can I simultaneously say Louise’s affirmation/prayer and not bypass my feelings? Yes, yes you can.

So I said the prayer and I went for a walk. And feeling my feelings. And while I was walking, I decided I would do Aham Prema (it had been a long while) and a meditation came to me regarding integrating a broken heart. 

Perhaps I will refine the meditation. For now, here is Aham Prema and a meditation for my/our broken hearts. 

December 24, 2023
Flagstaff, AZ